Confession

When ever we talk to a buddy a long and just want to spend too much time with her and u does that she talks you as good friends but you got pinched to know she had someone more loved and before a long time you came there.... why can't I find some more special for me .... yes indeed if someone share there opinion so open heart why can't I accept it with an open heart ... in whole 24 yrs I was on the voyage for search of true companion.  But I learned one thing in my first year of graduation that I am not what they want and what I want is too much to ask from them..... actually I had an apologise to every girl I met and troubled her with my thought process ... and now when the  burden of me has lifted I just want someone with whome I can share everything ... writing is one process to express out what I feel but any feedback I didn't get. .... I was just hoping to bring the tracks right and what I learned was a great complication of emotions jumbled up with chios of my feelings with other ..... just want yo say .... and its official ... I was in love with you.... Life of mine is unpredictable  it always give me a surprise visit when I feel relaxed of it .I wonder why my good is not considered and excellence is what I can't produce but in trying of achieving I never stop hardwork ... I just got more than enough then my profile and faith...... but all you can take but one thing render ...... I love you but can't say to u that's what I am ... I can react write but can't speak ... no matter to whome you like I matters why you don't for me.....