Month of silence

After being alone and silently observing the the past few days and month in which I had expressed that few persons were able to help me out to ionise feelings from my past but when I again memorize about those days I understood that I was just another name of person in the playing list for them. Nothing changed for me yet but my own personal joys were sacrificed.  I always given importance to all friends above my own and in return expected nothing and no other friend failed ,they used to play with my feelings. Slowly more than a month is passing without speaking to them. It never hurt the loneliness then been betrayed by someone. The social element in my soul has vanished . May be in any future time instant those who cares about me would apper but at then I might not be the same as a month ago. Changed against the backdrop of my favourite place and flavour of life just seeking a flow beyond my voyage of sail. Friends are most interested persons of one's life but last couple of year I failed to be friendly with any right person. Between chase and cage i wasted all my creative writing skills in a cage chasing nothing importance to anyone

Dumbed dumped

All things came to an end leaving behind the wheel of running second  either good or bad but it's always hard to evaluate. You can't blame other of your own incapacity of understanding and taking  inefficient decision. While trying to make you part of my own life I was so stupid and in sane that I just overlooked all facts and blindly trusted upon you.... for making you feel special I credited for every single good and just didn't bother about your mistakes .... I just tried to correct and myself said sorry for every mishaps caused by either of us....but what was you thinking I just don't understood. ? You played a super game of emotions with me and avenging yourself by destroying everything just because you hated a girl which was with my close buddy.... you first created a cater and then the most strong group of seven ...was never been together again... what a game plan ... hatts off.... why trying to minimise the difference, all starting thread originated from you only....how can I be so selfish that I didn't sorted out these things just happening before me...you exploited our minute misunderstanding to wide range.... you exaggerated every worst possible things in a critical way.... may you be so proud in a such good plan neither of all seven stand still ..... girl ... thanks for making me just to hate myself. ... you fooled me.... I trusted you so much ... while you at a time handling two boys. ... how could you...... you made me to hate myself only..... truth is only unconditional caring is love that only family cares about. .. rest in peace with your cruel intention. .. good luck

Am I still the same

Today just having nothing in mind but still the big confusion and the feeling I am in thinking Love and friendship is all similar sensitive skin but the only difference is your best friend can't be your soul mate, but true soul mate is the best buddy of yours.Now and latter we just need some part of dipping craziness to be on same same scale of level on which it was ever. So the quest arise to seek someone really around us who can make our expectations fulfilled and once we achieve that we feel on paradise. After being alone and special one missing around me I just came reading an article on queries about love and relationship ... writtter has his opinion so do I... but the main moto behind that was to see the meaningful love explanation. .. but love is beyond any explanation. .. it's always been a experience of every single individual came across in his life in different times and situation which creates memories and hence his explanation about love...I was wondering whether or not what I had lived came under this past was I was fake to me or she was making fun out of me.. but reality is we both never match each others expectations. . Now being a month passed am I really any worthy in my presence or something. ?