Tanha raat ka sath

Raat aur uska mera sath .... jaisse abb kissi aissi dosti ki surruwat ho gai hai jiske sath mera bahut sa wqt beet ne laga hai .... kl ki raat bhi ussi mein se ek thi...... nayapan liye kuch romanchk safar hi lag raha tha.. hum jb shaam k wqt kaam ki bhag-um-bhag se khali huy aur apni ghadi se nazar milai to pata chala ki abb der ho gai train to nikal gai.. yatra fir bus se karni hogi. .kanpur se Allahabad ka safar tha lamba aur din ki thakkan haavi ho chuki thi.. ek bus ki aur rukh kiya aur sbse aage ki seat pr virajmaan huy... jhakkarkati bus stop. hammara yahan se purana yarana jo hai. Kher lagbhag 6 :20 k aspass bus chali aur sidhe bipass na ramadevi na ja kr bipass ki tarf rukh kar li kyun ki c.o.d k pass flyover k kaam chalu tha to traffic police ne route diversion laga rakha tha. Wahan bipass per jo lamba jaam tha ki matra 100 mt chalne mein 1:30 ghante lag gay... kher 8 baje ramadevi se chale to umeed yahi bacchi thi ki abb 2 tk Allahabad ..tabhi se raat ne aapne anokhe khel hamare sath khelni ki sochi... raste mein barsat aur hamari bus k beech ek race si thi   jahan bhi jaate wahan tez barsat . Kl ki raat bheegne ka alag hi maza tha... bus jb Fatehpur se chali to matr 5 passenger the...aur jhamajhm barish....jb khaga paar kiy to hamari bus ne dokha de diya kuch bhi karne se inkar na chalu hoti na kuch response karti ... behral ek ghanta highway per intezaar k baad 12 baje ke kareeb hum logo ko dusri bus milli.... usse Allahabad kareeb 2 baje aay... tb tk hr 10 min per barsaat ki luka chippi jari thi..

Jhlli baba part 2 full

Jb humne hass kr kuch shabdo ko kakaj pr ukera.....
Kissi ne pagal to kissi ne jhalli hai samjha.....
Ek ko laga iska unse hi hai wasta.....
Chali aai subah subah bina kiy nastha....
Abb bhaya unki jo bhi thi pareshani.....
Sunni padi majboori mein puri kahani......
Abb jb aai hamari unko samjhane ki baari......
Unko yaad aagai wahi purani bimari......
Suni hi nahi kya thi hamari jubani....
Har baat pe .....
Wo to sahi hai pr batao huwa kyu kuch aissa  ?
Bola hi kyu tumne usse kuch bhi aissa waissa?
Jb bhi humne khuch bhi kehna tha chaha....
Unka samne ajata tha sawal naya taza taza. ..
Arre mohtarma galti kiya jo kuch bhi likha .....
Taras kha jaao... abb thoda hi dimmag baccha...

Jhalli baba

Jb humne hass kr kuch shabdo ko kakaj pr ukera.....
Kissi ne pagal to kissi ne jhalli hai samjha.....
Ek ko laga iska unse hi hai wasta.....
Chali aai subah subah bina kiy nastha....
Abb bhaya unki jo bhi thi pareshani.....
Sunni padi majboori mein puri kahani......
Abb jb aai hamari unko samjhane ki baari......
Unko yaad aagai unko wahi purani bimari......
Suni hi nahi kya thi hamari jubani....
Har baat pe .....
Wo to sahi hai pr batao huwa kyu kuch aissa?

Gadgets ki duniya

FEW LINES I CAME ACROSS TODAY .A:- Aaj neend koso dur hai....bada ajjeb sa lagta hai aap kissi se baat karna chahte hai...... hatho mein phone hai screen pr uska number pr aap call nahi karte ...... bss intezaar karte hai shayad wo aapase khud baat krle........ isssi intezar mein rehte hain kass reply thoda lamba hota....... aur thoda jaldi ata ...... kuch thand ki raat ka kammal tha....aur kuch intezaar ka.......... ahat thi bhi aur nahi bhi............alfaz kabhi khul kr kyun nahi bahe pata nahi......kass aur thoda ruk kr baat ki hoti.......aankahe baato ko samjha hota..... sirf tera itna puch lena hi kafi hota tu pareshan kyun ho... kya huwa..... tumhare bare mein jannana cahata hun........ pr shayad humme y mallum nahi kuch saatir dost ke libas mein bhediy the........ unko to maze le kr khane ki addat hai.......PR KYA KAREN TERE JAWAB

Maut ki jhalak

ishq mohabbat sb sapno jaissa hi hai ..... band ankho se sb accha lagta hai sb assan pr jb ankhe khulti hai kuch bhi nazar nahi aata sb kori kalpana..... pata nahi kyu aaj dar lag raha bahut darr ..... thodi der plz ruk jao ..... dekho na kya ho raha mere sath .... sambhal lo na humko teri yaad aarahi ...... saanso ka pehra bhi tuut sa raha hai..... saamne kuch samjh nahi araha ,nahi dekh pa raha  kuch bhi .... aaj phli baar marne se itna dar raha hun thodi der aur rukna chahta hun tere sath thoda wqt bitana chahta  .....  ...... tabhi darwaje pr dastk hui aur hamari need khul gai.....  jb ankhe khuli to bed pr leta tha charo aur machine thi ...hatho k raste jeevan deni ki kosis jaari thi...... hamne darwaje ki taraf dekha ander ata huwa doctor ....... chehre pr muskan liy.... tabhi mein bed se uth gaya doctor abhi bhi aage badh raha tha uske chehre pr khushi kayam thi...... dr ki tarah hath badhane ki kosis mein khud ko hi bistar pr khuli ankho se leta dekha..... dr ki hassi abb nahi thi ...... ussne machino ko dekha aur khuli ankho ko bnd kiya .....nurse ko jaruri hidayate dekar chala gaya......
Akhiri khwaish ...... sb adhori thi .

. Gharwalo ko khabar bhi nahi ...... shayad hum sbse bahut door nikal gay the..... peeche lautna tha akhiri baar sb se milna tha...... baat katni thi tumse maafi mangana tha....sbk sath hasna tha .... maaji ki gud mein aona tha.......... pr shayad y sb juzar chuka tha

Dstk tkkrar ki part 2

Jaruri hai in baato ka khul k bahar ana ..... sahu aur mein akele the aur uski puri team bahar sahu k intezar mein ..... sach ander hi ander laga ki lag gai wat aaj .... aaj hoga pura bawal .... pr sahu ji muskuray humne bhi muskura diya.....
M.... intezar hai ki suru kiya jaay
S...... intni jaldi kis baat ki hai
M.....nahi collg ki bus bhi pakkadni hai ghar bhi jana hai.... yahi to nahi kar sakte puri shaam
S...... gussa shant nahi huwa kya
M..... bade bhai hamme jussa hi karna nahi aataa
S..... devendra se kya bole..
M.... bhai ussne bataya nahi kya kaisse dost hai...
S..... unse to acche jinki wajah se aaj yahan ho ...aur wo gahr
m.....akele hai to kya .... collg kuch sahi jagah nahi hai.... bhar khattam karte hai..
S..... phle sun to lo kya baat hai... ki apni hi karte rahoge
M.... bhai bss wqt km hai shaam ko aapk darbar mein hazir hote hai
S.... nahi wahan aap jaiaso ki jarurat nahi hai.... padhai pr dhyan do baki hum sambhal lenge....
M.....bhai ladkiyo ko kyu beech mein laate ho ... mardo wali baat ..mard ko daba k hai .... kamjoor ko nahi..
S.... yahan hum baat karne aay hai tumko ladai sujh rahi..
Jante ho humko....
M.... bahut acche se nahi....
S..... yaar chalo phir shaam ko jaan jaoge
Hum uthe bus ki oor ho liy bus pakkadi aur ghar.... raste mein 100 mtr ki doori chal k jaani padti thi.. aaj wo 20-25 ladko se bhari thi... humko bhi mallum tha patel nagar pr koi haath nahi laga sakta.....sb ghur rahe the aur hum unki ankho mein jhaak rahe the......
M.... maaji aaj shaam ko jana hai ... saurabh k yahan
Maaji ..... kyu
M.... kaam hai
Maaji... papa k sath chale jana
M...nahi ..aaj to akele jana hai
Maaji ...kya huwa ladd liy
M..... nahi kaam hai

Barbadiyo ka jassan

Kanpur ki ek raat usski yaad ne tadpa diya bechain ho utha ... nahi yaad reh saka kuch bhi .... aadhi raat ko jaga aur bagal k kamre nwin chala gaya subah k teen baj rahe the ... ki acchank sardi k maussam mein passine se bheeg gaya ... dost ne pucha kya huwa mein kuch bola nahi .... bsss ankhe laal thi ussne kaha bhai meri kl ki ticckt hai tubhi chal dekhte hai kya hota hai.... bina kissi ko batay subah ki train se hum dono mathura chal diy.....tb tk nashe se mera koi sathi nahi tha....wahan apna dost ankush mechanical engg kar raha tha ... usko call kar k canteen bulaya shaam k wqt wo mana kiya bola
A...kahin aur milte hai..
humne kaha kyu...
A...bss aissi hi...wahan nahi milla jay ..jahan kha wahan mil lenge pr canteen nahi
M....Bhai canteen k bahar khada hun bol kahan millu phir
A....Ruk bss agaya canteen k bahar
M.
.Kamine hamari bhabhi ander hai kya milwayga nahi
A....Mill liyo bhai aaj nahi
M...Ooy millunga to aaj hi
A...Tu isha se milne aaya hai na..ruk usko bata deta hun ...
M..Kamine tere ko nahi bataya to usko kyu bataay kl surprise dunga bina
Usko piche kar ka jabardasti canteen k ander agay
Ander isha aur uska dost baithe the baate kar rahe the ek hath dusre k hath mein ... usko pata bhi nahi chala mein wahin usk piche hun.
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Unhone hamari moojudgi samjhi hi nahi....
Hmnne khud ki bhi pehchaan mita di...

Ankush. .. chal yahan se
M... kb se yaar
A..... bss aaj hi yaar
M...dekh kar lagata to nahi
A.... pagal ho gaya saale tu..dost hai..mein to yahi rehta hun...mujhe nahi pata hoga to kissi hoga
M....sach bol raha
A.... mallum hai tere se jhut nahi bolta.
M...kuch to chupa raha tooo
A.... chal james bond ..harami bakiyo se nahi millna kya
Shaam ko hostel mein ruka terrace pr ghum raha tha 8 bj rahe honge I guess tabhi un dono ko sath hostel aate dekha ....thodi door girls hostel tha wo usko chodne gaya .... mere sath ankush ka friend tha .. meine pucha y kun hai
Y bhai y to laila majnu hai
M....mtlb
F...dono topper hai ec
Dono sath time dete hai canteen ghumna...roj ka routine hai....
M..... sach bol raha bhai
F..... jhut kyu balna bhai kyu kissi ko badnaam karna farzi ka....
M... naam.kya hai dono ka...
F..... isha and sidharth
M....chal bhai unk pass chalte hai kamre mein
F.... bhai tu too pita nahi na... kamine hai saale  jabardasti pila denge
m...abb nahi
F.... too ja bhai mein nahi
M.... chal thik
Kamare mein bina kissi k bole m..bhai ek hamara banana patiyala
A..pagal hai kya ..iska nahi banega
G.... bol rahanto ek de de
Tb tk ek cigarette jala li
A..... faizaan saale tum dono ne kya baat ki
F..... kuch nahi bss laila majnu dikhe ussi k baare mein
A... matha pakkad liya ...ho gaya styanash
M.... koi nahi kake ... jindagi hai chalne ka naam.... accha banda hai ....km.se km mere se to lakh accha
A.... milla.hai usse ..jo accha hai tere se ...janta bhi hai usse
M.... patiyala ek baar mein khattam .... isha.ko janta hun wo kabhi galat faisla nahi legi...
Raat bhar daru and cigarette chali wahi se surruwat hui dhuy k  sath meri. ... agle sin sb pade the mein utha ankush se bola chal raha hun.... wo bola pagal uttari nahi hai shaam.ko jaiyo....
Na yaar abb na rukna
Chal achha ruk chod k aata hun .....ussne uthne.ki kosia ki aur gir gaya...
Sambhal kake hum chale jayenge...
Bss alvida kaha aur wapas kanpur ....
Abb to allam y tha roj ki daru roj ki joint roj ki cigarette. ..barbaad hone lage ... coaching nahi jaate ... din bhar sona ... raat bhar daru..

Dstk tkkrar ki

10th ke exams k baad kafi lambi chuttiya hui thi jindagi mein pehla padav pura huwa tha .... kuch khas meri umeede thi nahi bss itna mallum tha 70-75 k beech ajay ..... hum ab results ka intezaar mein the ... ussi  beech lambi Chutiya mein sb kuch na kuch kar rahe the ,koi ghumne gaya tha ,koi apne hi yahan tha ...... shayad pheli baar ehsaah huwa tha unsse door rehne ka , yu to meri aur unke beech sirf itni hi baate hoti thi jaisse ki kya ho raha .....uski ek baat bahut khas thi padhati wo bahut badhiya thi ...help karne mein kabhi piche nahi rehti thi ... yaad hai chutiyo mein jidd kar k cycle li thi aur mein aur mera dost rohit sahu hamesha subah 5 baje se cycle chalane chale jate the lagbhag 10 - 15 km cycle chalate the hum dono aur mein jaan bhujh kar unke ghar k sammne se jata tha... unko bhi nahi pata na dost ko ..... aur bahana hota tha falsa ka .... mujhe accha lagta hai......shamm ko humne computer class join ki thi .... bss issi mein din nikal jata tha phir wo din bhi aya jb results aay...... sbse phle muktesh aya ghar phir rohit hum sath ghar se nikale mere 77.6 bane aur deviji k 87 I guess yadd nahi .. phir jb collg khule unko maths leni thi humko bio ... pr unke sath ka mukka nahi khona chahta tha.... isliy aapni aukkat se gyada maths bio opt ki...... iski bhi kahani thi  principal aur meri khundas ,tb tk hum dono ekdusre k samne aagay the....... wo raaji nahi tha aur hum ziddi......le kr manne ussne sirf 5 ko allow kiya baki sb 85 k upper aur hum 77.6 bss Bss yahin se meri dohri jindagi surru hui....sb sath lunch kar rahe the ki collg k kuch dabang students ne class mein aakaar ladkiyo ko kuch bola tb mein class k bahar tha aur mere dost saurabh himansh anand ander the isha bhi wahi thi ...... mere ko bataya gaya tha ki lunch mein kamra band kar k kha rahe the to saurabh sahu and group ne darwaje pr laat maari thi..mein junior gp mein lunch duty pe tha. . Jb wapas aya to jussa agaya ... mein uss samay tk ya to hasta tha y jusse mein rehta tha... middle raste the hi nahi ..... phli baar uske mana karne k baad bhi sahu se bhed gaya tha .. uska dost devendra milla tha ussi se behas ki ... mere aapne dosto ne sath nahi diya tha mera .....shaam tk ussne kuch nahi bola.... mahol garam tha aur mere pittne k pure assar ... puri fielding lag gai thi..... pr kyunki sahi baat pr apne dosto ne sath nahi diya to kissi se koi umeed bhi nahi thi...tabhi aaj uski di aak mere se baat ki......
Neelisha....... mohit kya kar rahe ho? Bahut acchi baat hai y? Bahut bade ho gay ho tum.log? Gundagardi maarpeet hi karni hai to yahan kya kar rahe ho?
M..... aapko mallum bhi hai kya huwa hai....
Nl..... haan
M....tb bhi lagta hai meri galti hai?
Ml..... haan
M....aissa kyu?
Nl....kyunki tum unjaisse nahi ho.... unka kaam sirf yahi sb karna hai .. aay din to resticate hote hai. Sbse badi baat chalo tum unse nipt loge phir bhi agar unlogo ne sadk pr hooting ki ya kuch kiya
M.... nahi aaj k baad aissa kuch nahi hoga...
Nl....kyu kya karoge...
M...Nahi patta pr jo bhi karunga ...aaj jarur karunga.
Nl.... tumse baat karna bekar hai chalo isha...
Dono wahan se chali gai..isha ne plt kar dekha bhi nahi sb chale gay wahan se... humne bhi bag uthaya aur nikal pade .aaj akhiri din tha sath mein kl se class divide honi thi jisme maths alag bio alag aur common bio gp mein rehta.... sahu se phli baar baat tabhi hui ... uski ek style passand aai thi wo akela baat karne aya koi sath nahi tha uske ...kya baat hui abhi nahi bataunga...... y baat batani jaruri hai waisse. ........

Mt yaad aao

Wo is kadar aaj phir yaad aay.
Jb gumnami ka pahar tha.....
Hoslo ki ukhadi chand sanse baki thi......
Manzil ka pata, bhi na kafi tha.
Wo hamme iss kadar phir yaad aay..
Hamme chand palo ki yaad mein chod gay.....
Ta umar unko sanjo kr rakhne k liy....
Akhiri sanso ki laddi bhi ladd si rahi thi ki acchank .....
Wo Humse nata tod .. juda ho k chale gay.....
Sanso ka carvaan abb sath nahi chal sakta tha shayad....
Warna kuch pal aur ji liy hote...

Kahani ka anzaam

Bss agle kuch dino tk sirf hi hello aur purane rutine pr jindagi daudti rahi... phir ek din na jane kyu mere dil mein khyal aya aaj usse sb bol dunga bolne ki himmat bhi juta li kamine dosto ne chane ki jhaad pr chadha diya tha...
S... bol sale usse . Abb nahi bolega to kb bolega
M... rehne de yaar pagal hai wo abhi burra jaygi.. waisse bhi naraz hai bol to rahi nahi hai ....
S.... bol de dekha jayga ..
M.... chal aaj bol hi dete hai ... khus.
S..... haan boli to tu kush nahi to hum.
M.... sudhar jaao kamino..

Recess mein hum sath the junior sec mein sath duty lagwai thi phir bio lab ke pass the hum dono

M.... aapse mujhe kuch baat karni hai
I... hamme nahi karni..
M...plz sun to lo...
I.....nahi ..mein ja rahi class...

Wo chali jaati hai .... phir meine kosis bhi nahi ki usse baat karne ki iss bare mein.....

Thodi der mein recess khatm aur phir class chalu hoti hai ... reena ma'am ki class thi wo sawal kar rahi thi aur mein chup chap sun raha tha ek ek kar ke sabse sawal kiya sabne jawab diya pr mein khamosh hi khada tha ... phli baar aissa huwa tha pr mnn jane kahan tha .. class k baad ma'am ne bula kar pucha kya huwa hai .. meine kha kuch bhi nahi bss aaj padha nahi tha.....
R ma'am. ... Sach  to kl agla chapter padh k ana
M... ji
R ma'am. ...thik hai jao
Wapas clasd mein aya class khali thi... isk baad games to hum ladko ne decide kiya volleyball k liy aur ladkiyo k liy indoor games......
Peter gomes ( games teacher )k pass se lana meri jimmedari thi bahut kahdus tha
Kher sb lane k baad hum ground mein the meine bhar baithna passand kiya mnn tha nahi kuch karne ka......
Thodi der mein satynarayan sir (math teacher) aur Mahendra sir (social sciences) mere ko bahar delh kar mere pass aak baith gay
Ss... kya huwa pandey khel nahi rahe
M.... nahi sirji bss aaj team badi hai to baki ko khelne de rahe koi thake to hum khelenge....
Ms...... koi nahi aao team banate hai khela jaay .....
M...... jaissa aap kahe....
Sare log ruko team banao 6 ki sir bhi khelenge

Phir team bani mein  dono sir himansh anand saurabh ek taraf. ... 10 point k set ki baat hui do set kyunki 2 hrs pur the khelne ko ..... sb raji.... 
Mahendra sir ne service start ki ... phle teen point hamare the unki service continue rahi ..phir ek samne wali team.ka  iske baad service ki jimmedari humko milli ....  service continue rahi aur set aapne naam huwa ... pr pata hi nahi chala sammne wale k smash ko bacchane k chakkr mein dis balance ho kr gir gaya aur haath sooj gaya .... thande paani se dhone k liy water .
I..... phir se
M.... haan yaar
I... kabhi sahi salamat rehne ka bhi vichar hai
M..... lagta to nahi
I... mazak karna kb band kroge....
M.... kyu aisse acche nahi lagte kya....
I....nahi.... dikho haath.
M.... sahi hai ....... bss swelling arahi hai
I..... swelling nahi aaygi to kya hoga ..kuch to akal se kiya karo.... jb dekho tb kuch na kuch thode phode rehte ho
M.... chalo yaar abb ho gaya sb thik hai...
Phir school over hone k baad ghar wapas. ..... ghar aya rocky ne jaan liya kuch gadbad hai ...... hath k pass hi tha shant aaj wo bhi nahi khel raha tha shaam ko papaji aay dekhe bole chalo dikha kr aate hai .... meine bola ki crap bandage se kaam chal jayga... aur wahi kiya bhi.....

My piece

Kahani ki shaam

Phli class over ho gai... aur phir dhere dhere pura din shaam tk ajeeb si khamoshi hi rahi hamare beech .sath lunch bhi nahi kiy the aaj .. aaj shayad dono ne hi lunch nahi kiya.... mere ko principal sir ne bulaya tha ... aaj ki report k liy phir recess mein junior sec ki duty aur mnn tha bhi nahi  aapne bhi nahi kiya wajah mallum nahi. Ajjeb nahi lagta tha.. pr yahin se apne beech baat km khamoshi gyada rehne lagi ... din bhi khattam huwa phir shanti k sath hum dono sath class k bahar aay aapki badi di aai aur stairs se aap chali gai mein wahin rukka tha .. aaj pheli wahi soor se aapko jate huy dekh raha tha .... phir laut k ghar agaya aaj rocky phle se gate pr tha bag rakha .. kapde change kiy aur phir ek kavita likhi

Kahani ka agla din

Aaj subah jaldi jg gaya pata nahi kyu ...par aaj papaji bhi jage the shayad kuch baat thi office ki ... wo akhbaar padh rahe the baramde mein unk pass gaya gud morning bola aur rocky ko awaj lagai wo aya aur hum dono ek dusre se lad gay khel khel mein ... subah ki addat mein shumar tha rocky k sath khelna... phir papaji bole tyaar ho jao bus ane wali hogi .. hum bhi wahan se wapas kamre mein aakar tyyar hone lage ...... tyaar huy 6:20 ki bus se collg... raste mein ek 1 st class ka ladka tha accha dost bn gaya tha shailendra sahu. .... jisse phli baar naam.pucha to cheenu bola .... mein aur babloo bhaiya . (Bus conductor) usske sath hassi mazak karte the . Accha ladka tha ... uss din wo ek gende ka fool laya mere liy ..meine bhi le liya .. collg pahuncha ki lagbhag 7 tk isha bhi aagai.. meine wo phool usse de diya ...muskurai. aur rkh liya........
Thodi der mein ground assembly surru hui .... sb ground mein the wapas aay to pata chala phli class khali hai... class monitor tha to sb bole kissi ko na bulao meine bhi yahi kiya pr sbse aapna kaam karte tehne ko bol diya.
I... himanshi dekho nalayk ko
H... kun mohit? abb kya huwa
I.. kuch nahi bahut badtameez ho raha
H.. saurabh tumhara dost batamez hai
S.... kyu abb kya kiya
H... isha bol rahi hai aissa
S... dono pagal hai
I... pata nahi kya likhta rehta hai
S... batao mohit kya likhte rehte ho
M ... kuch nahi yaar
I... accha dekho iske bag mein dairy hogi
M... rukko dikha raha ....

Abhi y sb baate chal hi rahi thi kissi ne dhyan nahi diya isha gende ke phool ki hr pankhudi alag alag kar rahi thi
I.... iske page kyu phate hai
M..kl bola na koi nahi padh payga... likhna bnd ok
I...dekho isko kitna batamez ho raha
M.. hdd hai yaar wahi kiya na jo aapne kaha
I... pagal ho tum.... lo apana phool
M.. arre yaar y kya kiya.....
I... tumne phad diya humne bhi alag alag kr diya...
M... class mein gandagi kariy bss.aur batamez hum
I.... wo to ho hi....
M... aree
I... kya ..lo isse aur phek do....
Hum age badhe aur tukado ko sameta..pr pheka nahi unkonsambhal k aapne pass rakh liya

Kahani ki surruwat

Ek assi kahani ki surruwat kar rahan jiski na surruwat ka pata hai na ant k bss kyu ki isse mein ji raha hun ... y har pl apna swarup badal rahi hai. Meri khani ki suruwat tb ki hai jb meine phli baar usse dekha usski baate uski yaade na jane kya ... kya.. wo topper thi aur hum bss aisse hi apni di logo ki banay ek benchmark se naape jane wale jiske wajood ki gunjaish itni thi ki kabhi  hum sirf mohit bn k nahi reh paay. Hum alag the suru se, sb se ,sb alag hote hai pr na jane kyu kaisse hamari bhi apni pehchaan thi.. kabhi kuch aissa hasil nahi kiya tha jis pr gumaan ho pr aissa bhi nahi tha ki kuch hassil nahi kiya .mere jindagi ki wo choti choti khusiya jahan pr humko hamesha hamare ghar walo ka support milla ek wqt wo bhi tha jb hum hatash the, jindagi se mehrum tb bhi ... surruwat hui is kahani ki 10 th se usske phle ek nakchaddha sirdard tha mein phir na jane kya huwa ki badlne laga nahi mallum tha iski wajah ,aaj bhi nahi janta ..hamesha muskurahat ,tuunk mizaji hamari pehchaan hoti thi aisse to kai wakay hai pr sbse pehla wo tha jb dairy likhna suru kiya uss wqt se hi isha ka dhyan tha.. usske sath padhna .. usse sawal jawab usske notes uska humko samjhana . Datna sb alag tha.yu to gehri dost thi hamari pr shayad hum hi hr rishte ko naam dene ke piche pagal the.... shayad yahi wajah thi ki hum usse kitni dooor hai aaj.. ground mein khelna phir thak k wahi sustana .. himaat to thi pr jism ki takkat sath kahan nibati thi .  Tb humne apni likhne ki adat ko ayam denw k.liy diary likni suru ki suruwat k hi dino mein lagne laga ki ussme usse baate hoti thi . Dosto se baat share karne mein yahi hota tha ki ya to mazak nahi to badnami dono .... phir shayad tbhi se meine aapni baato ko likhna suru kiya aur tabhi se badalne laga... aissa nahi ki baate share nahi karta tha iske baad karta tha pr frk nahi padta tha wo kya sochte hai . Apni hi duniya hone lagi thi... isme maza aur saja dono hi thi .. to baat tb ki hai jb ek sin kissi baat pr apna ghagda huwa tha  aur do din koi baat nahi phir acchank games class mein wo hamare pass aai aur baat ki
I.... kya kar rahe ho? Tumhe har baat itni der se kyu samjh aati hai. Kya likhte rehte ho ... baat karni hai ki nahi?
Mein bss usko dekh hi raha tha dairy ko chupay
M.... nahi aissa nahi hai . Janti ho ki jaldi jussa ata hai aur shant bhi ho jata hai.. nahi mallum tha ki itna jussa tum bhi karogi. Samjhana chahiy tha ki nahi .. aur baate to aapse hoti hai .. kyu nahi karunga .. jarur karunga .. abb to bilkul nahi band karunga. .
I..... to laao dikho kya likha hai
M.... nahi yaar y mere liy hai .sbko nahi padhata.
I... to collg mein lakar kyu likte ho .ghar pr rakha karo
M.... jb bhi wqt milta hai likhte hai .. abb y sath hi rehti hai chahe ghar ho ya collg.
I... jo bhi ho dikho mujhe padhna hai.
M.. nahi yaar samjha karo
I... mujhe padhna hai bss....
Cheene ki asfal kosis. ...
M .... plz aissa na karo chot lag jaygi .. waise bhi ground mein sab dekh rahe
I... tumhe kb se sabki chinta hone lagi
Tabhi class khattm hone ki bell bajti hai dono apne dosto k sath wapas class aate hai....
I... dikhate ho ki nahi
M... nahi..
I.... jaao ... bahut bhaw hai tumhara..
Agli class surru hoti hai... phir school.over . Dono sath mein class se nikalte hai... pr khamosh ...
I... koi aur padh lega tb kuch nahi ..humko dekhane mein bhav
M.. koi nahi dekhega... aaj se likhna band thik hai.
I... bol to aisse rahe ho jaisse sari baat samjhte ho ...
M.... ek baar bola na abb nahi hoga aissa
Uski badi di usko lene ajati hai .. phir dono apne ghar ki aur nikal jati hai

Life

Life of mine is unpredictable  it always give me a surprise visit when I feel relaxed of it .I wonder why my good is not considered and excellence is what I can't produce but in trying of achieving I never stop hardwork ... I just got more than enough then my profile and faith...... but all you can take but one thing render ...... I love you but can't say to u that's what I am ... I can react write but can't speak ... no matter to whome you like I matters why you don't for me.....

Apologies

This is what I want u to know ma'am .... I know I disturb u a lot .... I know many times u just want to avoid me but I am what u can't avoid this is due to ur sweet nature. I wonder why I can't help my self .. today u were upset I know u don't want to talk I knew but it's ur really sweet nature u have given me time to talk .. just couldn't help myself . This is an apologise from my side to sweet hearted girl that she had given me so much space and comfortable around her that may I had crossed few times ur patience and made u angry even though u were kind towards me .After messaging so much I just want u to know I want you to keep smile all times but I just wondere how u manage all these my idiotism and ur patience what make u si special for me just  a special friend which give me time and support whenever I needed most..... this time I love my faith and luck due to which I got such a good friend.but might not made u comfortable so that u can share ur worries with me .... sorry ma'am for all my misdeeds .that were due to unknowingly plz forgive and at least smile

What next

Mein kya kar raha hun nahi pata ..... kisliy kar raha hun nahi janta..aaj jb patna se wapas araha tha ankho mein need thi nahi aur mera bogie mein mnn nahi lag rha tha ..mein apni tanhai k sath darwaje pr ja kr thodi der khada tha aur khamosh raat ki bechaini  mein ankho k samne se juzarte har cheez tezi se nikal rahi thi...mere ko samjh nahi araha tha ki wahi ruku ki ek kaddam aage badha dun hassi aati hai aisse khyalo se . Pr us wqt samjh sath khan thi.. sitaro ki duniya ek alag andaz mein samne thi ek taraf train ki dhad dhad aur upper santi se bikhare chamkile taare .. kabhi khayalo ke selaab achhank aate aur kabhi kho bhi jaate. Socha to y tha ki haan koi aissa hota jisko dil se yaad kar paate jisk sath hr baat share kar paate jisko hamari phikr hoti.. pr nahi hamare sath hamari kismat ki aazmaish aaaj bhi jaari thi.kismat ne maano y thaan aa liya hai bina sangharh bino do do hath kiy kuch pane nahi degi aur wo hai to hamari hi kismat hummse jiddi nahi jo chahiy agar wo bhi na pa sake to sanso ki y laddi bojh se km nahi. Mein practical kuch jyada hun ..har cheez ke hone ka matlb reason in sb pr dhyaan deta hun n isliy dusro se gyada dhukhi hun... wahi baitha tha aur kb subah hogai pata hi nahi chala sath mein na jane kb cigarette ka dibba khattam ho gaya pr khayalo ki wajah aur unki yaade jehan se aisse gayab nahi hoti bss bayan nahi karpaunga bss aankho mein paani aur thar thare uth aur unk beech hum.

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Kabhi kabhi jo mein karta hun uski wajah hamme bhi nahi mallum hoti pr jb wo ho hi jaya karta hai to drr kiss baat ka ..... yun ignore aap aisse hi karti rahengi to yakenan jiss din aap hamme bhul kr unk pass chali jayengi jahan se aapke dil ka surur hai to jane kya hoga.....mein ye nahi keh ta hun ki aap hum