Ecos of silence

Kuch din phle jo meine kiya uska explanation de raha hun.. galti koi or kare saja kissi aur ko mille y galat baat hai.. abb jo naya ghatnakram samne aya hai uske mutabik humare priy mitra pr y arop lag raha hai ki y ussne kiya... arre mohtarma y batao ki phone kar k humse kya kaha tha tumne?or jb baat bigadegi to tumko call karungi ajana..? Kyu bhai tb kyu aay .. sala sari galti jb mere hi sir madhni thi to y bata tere favour mein y baat jaati to thik na jati to mere ko samne kar deti... yahi plaan tha na tera... kyu karu jo tune kaha....sala harmkhor ko pitna hi tha mere hatho aaj nahi to kl.... abhi to jo kiya wo uth k muh mein jeera barabar hai....mere kissi bhi dost per iljam lagane se phle y sb jaan le.. abhi hum jinda hai... bakaiti aur himakat jab jaruri ho karni hi padti hai...aor jo tere sath hona chahiy wahi hoga abb.. Sala y bhi chahiy .wo byi nahi khona ... sati savitri bani rehna... duniya ki nazar mein apni image banana. .. dusre ki jira kar.... kyunki samne wala to explanation dega nahi kissi ko.... y jiri hui harkat teri hai.... sala samjh nahi araha tere aur vandana k beech ke majak mein mein kahan se jhus gaya .... ghusa to apne tk rakhni thi baat... jb nein wahan tha hi nahi.... mere se kya matlb tha... bola tha na ek din phle ki kutta bol lo uss mental k sath naam na jod.... samjh nahi ata kya ek baar mein.... agar kuch plan kar k kiya na .. to sala koi nahi ki phir humse bach jay.... bola tha na ki char din se lm ja rahe... tere ko chul thi sath chalne ko  hamare sath... humko nahi...humare sath baki sab arahe the.... aur khud janti jo pura hostel chal raha ...last time unka plan change ho haya y hamara lan lagta hai....gali khane wali kharkate na kar... ladkiyo ki bahut Ijjat karta hun per teri jaissi nahi dekhi

Musafir phir yahin

Rahe bhi puch baithi abto
Kyu musafphir bana hai
Na manjil ka pata hai
Na koi thor dagar hai
Bss sath nibhane tera
Ek jaam ka sahama hai

Hum ne bhi haskar usse bola
Usko bhi Raj-e-dil-o haal sunaya
Arre agar hum na hote to kun deta ....
Teri tnhaiyo ka sath ...
Mein bss bhag raha hun wqt
K sath
Umar k sath
Maut k pass...maut k pass

The insomniac dream ...... start

Aaj wqt ki ek lehar se phir takra gaya ..... nahi chahta tha ki aissa ho .... yhan logo k chehre pr pade mukhoto se pareshaan hun..... maze lene walo ki duniya hi azeeb hai .. wo to maze lenge pr shayad wo sabr humme nahi ki har baar bardast kar le.. sb apne aap ko saaf dusro se upper dikhana chahte hai.. acchi baat hai pr kissi or ko necha dikha kar....meri jindagi ki sabse badu bhool y thi ki .... kissi khas ko y dikhane k khatir usk bina jindagi rukki nahi.... yhan kuch jindagi pr elzaam bn gay....meri apni wajaho se kissi ko hurt hoga y socha na tha....abb frk nahi padta ki kun kya hai.... y dhund abb surf maussam hai ...... mere samne apno ki saaf tasveer hai.. jindagi k dogle aur maza khor samne hai...

Jb wo mile phir se

Jo betta wo wqt hassen tha...
Jb y lb bhi muskurate the....
Sirf Pyaar k nagme gungunate the.
Har wqt bss tum sath hote the
Jb hum rutha karte the
tum haskar hamme manate the
Iss parai duniya k
purane reet samjhate the..
Hass kar gum mitane ko
tum gale lagate the....
Un nigaho mein bss apni hi tasveer pate the...
Pareshaniyo se ghire hum pechaan banane nikle the.
Sath na chute tumse y wada kar k ghar se nikle the..
Pr wqt ne aissa khel tha khela
Ajeeb hi tha y duniya ka mela
Kuch wqt jo hath tera chuta tha
Mano wqt ne apni chaal badha di
Aaj bhi uss sath ko bechain mnn tarsta hai
Aaj bhi woo wqt hai ..
betarteb bikhara mera aks hai....
Phir ek shaam samne jb tum thi aai...
Meri aankhe bhar si aai ...
Pr abb tum badle huy lagte the
mathe pr bindi hatho mein kangan huya karte the....
Jo nigahe kabhi jane pechane se lagte the
Kabhi Unka noor hum huwa karte the..
Aaj wo mile jaisse ek ajnabee se
Sath unk bhi ek massum tha...
Humne bhi usse pucha uska naam tha...
Ankhe to tb bhar aai...
Jb uss massum ne haskar le liya hamara hi naam.....
Dastoor to dekho jo duniya ki reet samjhate the
Aaj ussi mein hum dono yuhi piste jaate hai.
Wo abb bhi bola karti hai...
Jevan jena sikha deti hai..
Na badnaam ho kahin apni mohabbat
Wo humse aur hum unse aaj bhi nazare chura lete hai....
Ajnabee se kabhi mil.jate hai
Pehchaan kar anjaan ban jate hai
Iss jaalemm duniya ki reet purani nibhate hi chale jate hai...

Shaam ka jaam

Sham-e - tnhai mein ....
Jb akele hote hai...
Tb y nain bebas lachar hi rote hai.....
Ek wo yaad hai jo jaati nahi.....
Ek y jaam hai jo madhos karta nahi...
Kosis ki thi ki jala k khak kardu teri tasveer. ...
Ek wo aag hai jo abb tk bhujhi nahi...
Humko gila nahi ki sath tera paya nahi.
Na jaane kun thi wo jo aaj bhi sath hai..
Ek wo hai jo sath deti nahi
Ek y raat hai jo khattam hoti nahi...
Akele chalte huy na jane kahan pahunch gay. ....

Safar

From the last few years I was travelling a lot and by all means of available transport ... many times challenging what I can do the best ...500km distance marathon...now the part of my life ... this time when I was travelling from lucknow to Allahabad as usual ...started my journey and of course I thought that I had experienced almost every possible bad circumstances but what the hell situation was while catching up the bus at the 1 pm and moving merely a 20 km from lucknow the coundutor union called for strike and they were refunding the ticketing amount. ... bus was back in alambagh after a while around 3 I started to move towards the railway station and amazed to see sleeper compartment was housepacked like the local one.... couldn't even thought to travel in such hell situation and again returned to alambagh ...waiting and waiting and waiting to call off stike but nothing was happening just few slogans in air against their md mean while I meet with a stranger from Indian navy .... and had a conversation about couple of hours .... it was almost 6 now and I was nowhere to land.... soon around 7 the strike was off but the house pack busses irregular parking made us to leave at 8:45 pm and I finally landed in 3 am in Allahabad. ......

Jiddi hum ya tum

Meri bhi jidd hai ....
teri jidd chudane  ki.....
Tere dil mein bhi pyaar ki agg lagane  ki......
Abb chahe tu kuch bhi kar le.......
Meri bhi jidd hai teri jidd chudane ki...

Abb bhi Chahe tu mujhse apna na bana .
Tujhe kissi ko apna banana sikha denge...
Teri ankho ki hum kir kiri sahi
Pr kissi nigaho ka noor bannna sikha denge....
Meri bhi jidd hai.teri jidd chudane ki.

Wada hai teri hassen muskurahat k samne na aayenge.....
Teri jindagi se door bhi chale jayenge..
Na Baato mein jikr hoga na kabhi khawabo mein tere nazar aayenge...
Pr y karne se phle
Meri bhi jidd hai teri jidd chuda denge......

Maut ka toffa

Hi .....mohit tumse baat nahi kar skti ...... dekho life mein aage badho... meri shadi ho gai hai and I am very happy. ..aur jo bhi tum samjhte ho wo sirf tumhare side se tha ..meri nahi ...fir bhi sbko lagta hai we were together at any time jo ki kabhi nahi tha.... tum mere bare mein baat na kiya karo kissi se bhi mazak mein bhi nahi..... hum friends wahi wale rahenge jo jb aamne samne ho to baat ho jay aur phir bhul jaay ..... tumhare status hurts me alot..... try to understand tum apni ussi duniya mein ho jo kabhi thi hi nahi.... uss wqt bhi mein tumhe aisse nahi passand karti thi..... aur aaj k baad hum ek dusre ko bss classmates ki tarah hi jante hai..... itna to kar hi sakte ho mere liy ..... wada karo.... bss duwa salam aur kuch nahi.... baki tumhari life hai jaissa jeena hai jiyo...but uss life se meri life disturb nahi honi chahiy...tum acche ho to kuch accha karo aur sb bhool jao....bye last time 

For fear of fearless

Jindagi k kissi mood pr ... rukk kar ... kissi ne humsse kuch kaha... wo alfaz the ki pattar aaaaj tk dard hota hai y soch kar.... kuch baate ruh ki gehrai se ho kar wahi apna ghar bana leti hai aur wqt bewqt wo dard bhi deti hai..kuch halat aapko kathor to bana dete hai apka drr bhi khattam kar dete hai... pr kahin kissi kone mein .. mnn k ander jhak kar dekhne pr koi drr samne ahi jata hai... mere jindagi mein bhi drr kuch km nahi

Sawal ho tum

Bahut khatarnak situation ho jaati hai jb dono log sahi hote hai .... pr dono hi ek dusre k khilaf ho jate hai.... ussme sbse badi cheez jo stati hai wo hai unme aai khamoshi. .. aapk pass koi to hai jisse aap share kar sakti hai pr hum jaisse kya kare jinki baato ki lehar aap k pass hi aakar ruk jaati thi. ...drra diya aapne humse yu khamoshi le k..... abb wahi hai jindagi. ... sach to y hai aapko ek accha dost maan liya tha.. jo ki kuch hi hai meri life mein. . Kehne ko to ek pura kafila hai pr sahi mayno mein mujhe nahi lagta ki jarurat pr koi sath tha..... waisse bhi jhan matlab aajay wo dosti nahi mere liy..... abbb bsss ek sawal baki hai..... koi ek wajah bataiy jis wajah se aapse mein baat karta tha..... mere raaz batay...... swarth mera bataiy...?

Tanha raat ka sath

Raat aur uska mera sath .... jaisse abb kissi aissi dosti ki surruwat ho gai hai jiske sath mera bahut sa wqt beet ne laga hai .... kl ki raat bhi ussi mein se ek thi...... nayapan liye kuch romanchk safar hi lag raha tha.. hum jb shaam k wqt kaam ki bhag-um-bhag se khali huy aur apni ghadi se nazar milai to pata chala ki abb der ho gai train to nikal gai.. yatra fir bus se karni hogi. .kanpur se Allahabad ka safar tha lamba aur din ki thakkan haavi ho chuki thi.. ek bus ki aur rukh kiya aur sbse aage ki seat pr virajmaan huy... jhakkarkati bus stop. hammara yahan se purana yarana jo hai. Kher lagbhag 6 :20 k aspass bus chali aur sidhe bipass na ramadevi na ja kr bipass ki tarf rukh kar li kyun ki c.o.d k pass flyover k kaam chalu tha to traffic police ne route diversion laga rakha tha. Wahan bipass per jo lamba jaam tha ki matra 100 mt chalne mein 1:30 ghante lag gay... kher 8 baje ramadevi se chale to umeed yahi bacchi thi ki abb 2 tk Allahabad ..tabhi se raat ne aapne anokhe khel hamare sath khelni ki sochi... raste mein barsat aur hamari bus k beech ek race si thi   jahan bhi jaate wahan tez barsat . Kl ki raat bheegne ka alag hi maza tha... bus jb Fatehpur se chali to matr 5 passenger the...aur jhamajhm barish....jb khaga paar kiy to hamari bus ne dokha de diya kuch bhi karne se inkar na chalu hoti na kuch response karti ... behral ek ghanta highway per intezaar k baad 12 baje ke kareeb hum logo ko dusri bus milli.... usse Allahabad kareeb 2 baje aay... tb tk hr 10 min per barsaat ki luka chippi jari thi..

Jhlli baba part 2 full

Jb humne hass kr kuch shabdo ko kakaj pr ukera.....
Kissi ne pagal to kissi ne jhalli hai samjha.....
Ek ko laga iska unse hi hai wasta.....
Chali aai subah subah bina kiy nastha....
Abb bhaya unki jo bhi thi pareshani.....
Sunni padi majboori mein puri kahani......
Abb jb aai hamari unko samjhane ki baari......
Unko yaad aagai wahi purani bimari......
Suni hi nahi kya thi hamari jubani....
Har baat pe .....
Wo to sahi hai pr batao huwa kyu kuch aissa  ?
Bola hi kyu tumne usse kuch bhi aissa waissa?
Jb bhi humne khuch bhi kehna tha chaha....
Unka samne ajata tha sawal naya taza taza. ..
Arre mohtarma galti kiya jo kuch bhi likha .....
Taras kha jaao... abb thoda hi dimmag baccha...

Jhalli baba

Jb humne hass kr kuch shabdo ko kakaj pr ukera.....
Kissi ne pagal to kissi ne jhalli hai samjha.....
Ek ko laga iska unse hi hai wasta.....
Chali aai subah subah bina kiy nastha....
Abb bhaya unki jo bhi thi pareshani.....
Sunni padi majboori mein puri kahani......
Abb jb aai hamari unko samjhane ki baari......
Unko yaad aagai unko wahi purani bimari......
Suni hi nahi kya thi hamari jubani....
Har baat pe .....
Wo to sahi hai pr batao huwa kyu kuch aissa?

Gadgets ki duniya

FEW LINES I CAME ACROSS TODAY .A:- Aaj neend koso dur hai....bada ajjeb sa lagta hai aap kissi se baat karna chahte hai...... hatho mein phone hai screen pr uska number pr aap call nahi karte ...... bss intezaar karte hai shayad wo aapase khud baat krle........ isssi intezar mein rehte hain kass reply thoda lamba hota....... aur thoda jaldi ata ...... kuch thand ki raat ka kammal tha....aur kuch intezaar ka.......... ahat thi bhi aur nahi bhi............alfaz kabhi khul kr kyun nahi bahe pata nahi......kass aur thoda ruk kr baat ki hoti.......aankahe baato ko samjha hota..... sirf tera itna puch lena hi kafi hota tu pareshan kyun ho... kya huwa..... tumhare bare mein jannana cahata hun........ pr shayad humme y mallum nahi kuch saatir dost ke libas mein bhediy the........ unko to maze le kr khane ki addat hai.......PR KYA KAREN TERE JAWAB

Maut ki jhalak

ishq mohabbat sb sapno jaissa hi hai ..... band ankho se sb accha lagta hai sb assan pr jb ankhe khulti hai kuch bhi nazar nahi aata sb kori kalpana..... pata nahi kyu aaj dar lag raha bahut darr ..... thodi der plz ruk jao ..... dekho na kya ho raha mere sath .... sambhal lo na humko teri yaad aarahi ...... saanso ka pehra bhi tuut sa raha hai..... saamne kuch samjh nahi araha ,nahi dekh pa raha  kuch bhi .... aaj phli baar marne se itna dar raha hun thodi der aur rukna chahta hun tere sath thoda wqt bitana chahta  .....  ...... tabhi darwaje pr dastk hui aur hamari need khul gai.....  jb ankhe khuli to bed pr leta tha charo aur machine thi ...hatho k raste jeevan deni ki kosis jaari thi...... hamne darwaje ki taraf dekha ander ata huwa doctor ....... chehre pr muskan liy.... tabhi mein bed se uth gaya doctor abhi bhi aage badh raha tha uske chehre pr khushi kayam thi...... dr ki tarah hath badhane ki kosis mein khud ko hi bistar pr khuli ankho se leta dekha..... dr ki hassi abb nahi thi ...... ussne machino ko dekha aur khuli ankho ko bnd kiya .....nurse ko jaruri hidayate dekar chala gaya......
Akhiri khwaish ...... sb adhori thi .

. Gharwalo ko khabar bhi nahi ...... shayad hum sbse bahut door nikal gay the..... peeche lautna tha akhiri baar sb se milna tha...... baat katni thi tumse maafi mangana tha....sbk sath hasna tha .... maaji ki gud mein aona tha.......... pr shayad y sb juzar chuka tha

Dstk tkkrar ki part 2

Jaruri hai in baato ka khul k bahar ana ..... sahu aur mein akele the aur uski puri team bahar sahu k intezar mein ..... sach ander hi ander laga ki lag gai wat aaj .... aaj hoga pura bawal .... pr sahu ji muskuray humne bhi muskura diya.....
M.... intezar hai ki suru kiya jaay
S...... intni jaldi kis baat ki hai
M.....nahi collg ki bus bhi pakkadni hai ghar bhi jana hai.... yahi to nahi kar sakte puri shaam
S...... gussa shant nahi huwa kya
M..... bade bhai hamme jussa hi karna nahi aataa
S..... devendra se kya bole..
M.... bhai ussne bataya nahi kya kaisse dost hai...
S..... unse to acche jinki wajah se aaj yahan ho ...aur wo gahr
m.....akele hai to kya .... collg kuch sahi jagah nahi hai.... bhar khattam karte hai..
S..... phle sun to lo kya baat hai... ki apni hi karte rahoge
M.... bhai bss wqt km hai shaam ko aapk darbar mein hazir hote hai
S.... nahi wahan aap jaiaso ki jarurat nahi hai.... padhai pr dhyan do baki hum sambhal lenge....
M.....bhai ladkiyo ko kyu beech mein laate ho ... mardo wali baat ..mard ko daba k hai .... kamjoor ko nahi..
S.... yahan hum baat karne aay hai tumko ladai sujh rahi..
Jante ho humko....
M.... bahut acche se nahi....
S..... yaar chalo phir shaam ko jaan jaoge
Hum uthe bus ki oor ho liy bus pakkadi aur ghar.... raste mein 100 mtr ki doori chal k jaani padti thi.. aaj wo 20-25 ladko se bhari thi... humko bhi mallum tha patel nagar pr koi haath nahi laga sakta.....sb ghur rahe the aur hum unki ankho mein jhaak rahe the......
M.... maaji aaj shaam ko jana hai ... saurabh k yahan
Maaji ..... kyu
M.... kaam hai
Maaji... papa k sath chale jana
M...nahi ..aaj to akele jana hai
Maaji ...kya huwa ladd liy
M..... nahi kaam hai

Barbadiyo ka jassan

Kanpur ki ek raat usski yaad ne tadpa diya bechain ho utha ... nahi yaad reh saka kuch bhi .... aadhi raat ko jaga aur bagal k kamre nwin chala gaya subah k teen baj rahe the ... ki acchank sardi k maussam mein passine se bheeg gaya ... dost ne pucha kya huwa mein kuch bola nahi .... bsss ankhe laal thi ussne kaha bhai meri kl ki ticckt hai tubhi chal dekhte hai kya hota hai.... bina kissi ko batay subah ki train se hum dono mathura chal diy.....tb tk nashe se mera koi sathi nahi tha....wahan apna dost ankush mechanical engg kar raha tha ... usko call kar k canteen bulaya shaam k wqt wo mana kiya bola
A...kahin aur milte hai..
humne kaha kyu...
A...bss aissi hi...wahan nahi milla jay ..jahan kha wahan mil lenge pr canteen nahi
M....Bhai canteen k bahar khada hun bol kahan millu phir
A....Ruk bss agaya canteen k bahar
M.
.Kamine hamari bhabhi ander hai kya milwayga nahi
A....Mill liyo bhai aaj nahi
M...Ooy millunga to aaj hi
A...Tu isha se milne aaya hai na..ruk usko bata deta hun ...
M..Kamine tere ko nahi bataya to usko kyu bataay kl surprise dunga bina
Usko piche kar ka jabardasti canteen k ander agay
Ander isha aur uska dost baithe the baate kar rahe the ek hath dusre k hath mein ... usko pata bhi nahi chala mein wahin usk piche hun.
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Unhone hamari moojudgi samjhi hi nahi....
Hmnne khud ki bhi pehchaan mita di...

Ankush. .. chal yahan se
M... kb se yaar
A..... bss aaj hi yaar
M...dekh kar lagata to nahi
A.... pagal ho gaya saale tu..dost hai..mein to yahi rehta hun...mujhe nahi pata hoga to kissi hoga
M....sach bol raha
A.... mallum hai tere se jhut nahi bolta.
M...kuch to chupa raha tooo
A.... chal james bond ..harami bakiyo se nahi millna kya
Shaam ko hostel mein ruka terrace pr ghum raha tha 8 bj rahe honge I guess tabhi un dono ko sath hostel aate dekha ....thodi door girls hostel tha wo usko chodne gaya .... mere sath ankush ka friend tha .. meine pucha y kun hai
Y bhai y to laila majnu hai
M....mtlb
F...dono topper hai ec
Dono sath time dete hai canteen ghumna...roj ka routine hai....
M..... sach bol raha bhai
F..... jhut kyu balna bhai kyu kissi ko badnaam karna farzi ka....
M... naam.kya hai dono ka...
F..... isha and sidharth
M....chal bhai unk pass chalte hai kamre mein
F.... bhai tu too pita nahi na... kamine hai saale  jabardasti pila denge
m...abb nahi
F.... too ja bhai mein nahi
M.... chal thik
Kamare mein bina kissi k bole m..bhai ek hamara banana patiyala
A..pagal hai kya ..iska nahi banega
G.... bol rahanto ek de de
Tb tk ek cigarette jala li
A..... faizaan saale tum dono ne kya baat ki
F..... kuch nahi bss laila majnu dikhe ussi k baare mein
A... matha pakkad liya ...ho gaya styanash
M.... koi nahi kake ... jindagi hai chalne ka naam.... accha banda hai ....km.se km mere se to lakh accha
A.... milla.hai usse ..jo accha hai tere se ...janta bhi hai usse
M.... patiyala ek baar mein khattam .... isha.ko janta hun wo kabhi galat faisla nahi legi...
Raat bhar daru and cigarette chali wahi se surruwat hui dhuy k  sath meri. ... agle sin sb pade the mein utha ankush se bola chal raha hun.... wo bola pagal uttari nahi hai shaam.ko jaiyo....
Na yaar abb na rukna
Chal achha ruk chod k aata hun .....ussne uthne.ki kosia ki aur gir gaya...
Sambhal kake hum chale jayenge...
Bss alvida kaha aur wapas kanpur ....
Abb to allam y tha roj ki daru roj ki joint roj ki cigarette. ..barbaad hone lage ... coaching nahi jaate ... din bhar sona ... raat bhar daru..

Dstk tkkrar ki

10th ke exams k baad kafi lambi chuttiya hui thi jindagi mein pehla padav pura huwa tha .... kuch khas meri umeede thi nahi bss itna mallum tha 70-75 k beech ajay ..... hum ab results ka intezaar mein the ... ussi  beech lambi Chutiya mein sb kuch na kuch kar rahe the ,koi ghumne gaya tha ,koi apne hi yahan tha ...... shayad pheli baar ehsaah huwa tha unsse door rehne ka , yu to meri aur unke beech sirf itni hi baate hoti thi jaisse ki kya ho raha .....uski ek baat bahut khas thi padhati wo bahut badhiya thi ...help karne mein kabhi piche nahi rehti thi ... yaad hai chutiyo mein jidd kar k cycle li thi aur mein aur mera dost rohit sahu hamesha subah 5 baje se cycle chalane chale jate the lagbhag 10 - 15 km cycle chalate the hum dono aur mein jaan bhujh kar unke ghar k sammne se jata tha... unko bhi nahi pata na dost ko ..... aur bahana hota tha falsa ka .... mujhe accha lagta hai......shamm ko humne computer class join ki thi .... bss issi mein din nikal jata tha phir wo din bhi aya jb results aay...... sbse phle muktesh aya ghar phir rohit hum sath ghar se nikale mere 77.6 bane aur deviji k 87 I guess yadd nahi .. phir jb collg khule unko maths leni thi humko bio ... pr unke sath ka mukka nahi khona chahta tha.... isliy aapni aukkat se gyada maths bio opt ki...... iski bhi kahani thi  principal aur meri khundas ,tb tk hum dono ekdusre k samne aagay the....... wo raaji nahi tha aur hum ziddi......le kr manne ussne sirf 5 ko allow kiya baki sb 85 k upper aur hum 77.6 bss Bss yahin se meri dohri jindagi surru hui....sb sath lunch kar rahe the ki collg k kuch dabang students ne class mein aakaar ladkiyo ko kuch bola tb mein class k bahar tha aur mere dost saurabh himansh anand ander the isha bhi wahi thi ...... mere ko bataya gaya tha ki lunch mein kamra band kar k kha rahe the to saurabh sahu and group ne darwaje pr laat maari thi..mein junior gp mein lunch duty pe tha. . Jb wapas aya to jussa agaya ... mein uss samay tk ya to hasta tha y jusse mein rehta tha... middle raste the hi nahi ..... phli baar uske mana karne k baad bhi sahu se bhed gaya tha .. uska dost devendra milla tha ussi se behas ki ... mere aapne dosto ne sath nahi diya tha mera .....shaam tk ussne kuch nahi bola.... mahol garam tha aur mere pittne k pure assar ... puri fielding lag gai thi..... pr kyunki sahi baat pr apne dosto ne sath nahi diya to kissi se koi umeed bhi nahi thi...tabhi aaj uski di aak mere se baat ki......
Neelisha....... mohit kya kar rahe ho? Bahut acchi baat hai y? Bahut bade ho gay ho tum.log? Gundagardi maarpeet hi karni hai to yahan kya kar rahe ho?
M..... aapko mallum bhi hai kya huwa hai....
Nl..... haan
M....tb bhi lagta hai meri galti hai?
Ml..... haan
M....aissa kyu?
Nl....kyunki tum unjaisse nahi ho.... unka kaam sirf yahi sb karna hai .. aay din to resticate hote hai. Sbse badi baat chalo tum unse nipt loge phir bhi agar unlogo ne sadk pr hooting ki ya kuch kiya
M.... nahi aaj k baad aissa kuch nahi hoga...
Nl....kyu kya karoge...
M...Nahi patta pr jo bhi karunga ...aaj jarur karunga.
Nl.... tumse baat karna bekar hai chalo isha...
Dono wahan se chali gai..isha ne plt kar dekha bhi nahi sb chale gay wahan se... humne bhi bag uthaya aur nikal pade .aaj akhiri din tha sath mein kl se class divide honi thi jisme maths alag bio alag aur common bio gp mein rehta.... sahu se phli baar baat tabhi hui ... uski ek style passand aai thi wo akela baat karne aya koi sath nahi tha uske ...kya baat hui abhi nahi bataunga...... y baat batani jaruri hai waisse. ........

Mt yaad aao

Wo is kadar aaj phir yaad aay.
Jb gumnami ka pahar tha.....
Hoslo ki ukhadi chand sanse baki thi......
Manzil ka pata, bhi na kafi tha.
Wo hamme iss kadar phir yaad aay..
Hamme chand palo ki yaad mein chod gay.....
Ta umar unko sanjo kr rakhne k liy....
Akhiri sanso ki laddi bhi ladd si rahi thi ki acchank .....
Wo Humse nata tod .. juda ho k chale gay.....
Sanso ka carvaan abb sath nahi chal sakta tha shayad....
Warna kuch pal aur ji liy hote...

Kahani ka anzaam

Bss agle kuch dino tk sirf hi hello aur purane rutine pr jindagi daudti rahi... phir ek din na jane kyu mere dil mein khyal aya aaj usse sb bol dunga bolne ki himmat bhi juta li kamine dosto ne chane ki jhaad pr chadha diya tha...
S... bol sale usse . Abb nahi bolega to kb bolega
M... rehne de yaar pagal hai wo abhi burra jaygi.. waisse bhi naraz hai bol to rahi nahi hai ....
S.... bol de dekha jayga ..
M.... chal aaj bol hi dete hai ... khus.
S..... haan boli to tu kush nahi to hum.
M.... sudhar jaao kamino..

Recess mein hum sath the junior sec mein sath duty lagwai thi phir bio lab ke pass the hum dono

M.... aapse mujhe kuch baat karni hai
I... hamme nahi karni..
M...plz sun to lo...
I.....nahi ..mein ja rahi class...

Wo chali jaati hai .... phir meine kosis bhi nahi ki usse baat karne ki iss bare mein.....

Thodi der mein recess khatm aur phir class chalu hoti hai ... reena ma'am ki class thi wo sawal kar rahi thi aur mein chup chap sun raha tha ek ek kar ke sabse sawal kiya sabne jawab diya pr mein khamosh hi khada tha ... phli baar aissa huwa tha pr mnn jane kahan tha .. class k baad ma'am ne bula kar pucha kya huwa hai .. meine kha kuch bhi nahi bss aaj padha nahi tha.....
R ma'am. ... Sach  to kl agla chapter padh k ana
M... ji
R ma'am. ...thik hai jao
Wapas clasd mein aya class khali thi... isk baad games to hum ladko ne decide kiya volleyball k liy aur ladkiyo k liy indoor games......
Peter gomes ( games teacher )k pass se lana meri jimmedari thi bahut kahdus tha
Kher sb lane k baad hum ground mein the meine bhar baithna passand kiya mnn tha nahi kuch karne ka......
Thodi der mein satynarayan sir (math teacher) aur Mahendra sir (social sciences) mere ko bahar delh kar mere pass aak baith gay
Ss... kya huwa pandey khel nahi rahe
M.... nahi sirji bss aaj team badi hai to baki ko khelne de rahe koi thake to hum khelenge....
Ms...... koi nahi aao team banate hai khela jaay .....
M...... jaissa aap kahe....
Sare log ruko team banao 6 ki sir bhi khelenge

Phir team bani mein  dono sir himansh anand saurabh ek taraf. ... 10 point k set ki baat hui do set kyunki 2 hrs pur the khelne ko ..... sb raji.... 
Mahendra sir ne service start ki ... phle teen point hamare the unki service continue rahi ..phir ek samne wali team.ka  iske baad service ki jimmedari humko milli ....  service continue rahi aur set aapne naam huwa ... pr pata hi nahi chala sammne wale k smash ko bacchane k chakkr mein dis balance ho kr gir gaya aur haath sooj gaya .... thande paani se dhone k liy water .
I..... phir se
M.... haan yaar
I... kabhi sahi salamat rehne ka bhi vichar hai
M..... lagta to nahi
I... mazak karna kb band kroge....
M.... kyu aisse acche nahi lagte kya....
I....nahi.... dikho haath.
M.... sahi hai ....... bss swelling arahi hai
I..... swelling nahi aaygi to kya hoga ..kuch to akal se kiya karo.... jb dekho tb kuch na kuch thode phode rehte ho
M.... chalo yaar abb ho gaya sb thik hai...
Phir school over hone k baad ghar wapas. ..... ghar aya rocky ne jaan liya kuch gadbad hai ...... hath k pass hi tha shant aaj wo bhi nahi khel raha tha shaam ko papaji aay dekhe bole chalo dikha kr aate hai .... meine bola ki crap bandage se kaam chal jayga... aur wahi kiya bhi.....

My piece

Kahani ki shaam

Phli class over ho gai... aur phir dhere dhere pura din shaam tk ajeeb si khamoshi hi rahi hamare beech .sath lunch bhi nahi kiy the aaj .. aaj shayad dono ne hi lunch nahi kiya.... mere ko principal sir ne bulaya tha ... aaj ki report k liy phir recess mein junior sec ki duty aur mnn tha bhi nahi  aapne bhi nahi kiya wajah mallum nahi. Ajjeb nahi lagta tha.. pr yahin se apne beech baat km khamoshi gyada rehne lagi ... din bhi khattam huwa phir shanti k sath hum dono sath class k bahar aay aapki badi di aai aur stairs se aap chali gai mein wahin rukka tha .. aaj pheli wahi soor se aapko jate huy dekh raha tha .... phir laut k ghar agaya aaj rocky phle se gate pr tha bag rakha .. kapde change kiy aur phir ek kavita likhi

Kahani ka agla din

Aaj subah jaldi jg gaya pata nahi kyu ...par aaj papaji bhi jage the shayad kuch baat thi office ki ... wo akhbaar padh rahe the baramde mein unk pass gaya gud morning bola aur rocky ko awaj lagai wo aya aur hum dono ek dusre se lad gay khel khel mein ... subah ki addat mein shumar tha rocky k sath khelna... phir papaji bole tyaar ho jao bus ane wali hogi .. hum bhi wahan se wapas kamre mein aakar tyyar hone lage ...... tyaar huy 6:20 ki bus se collg... raste mein ek 1 st class ka ladka tha accha dost bn gaya tha shailendra sahu. .... jisse phli baar naam.pucha to cheenu bola .... mein aur babloo bhaiya . (Bus conductor) usske sath hassi mazak karte the . Accha ladka tha ... uss din wo ek gende ka fool laya mere liy ..meine bhi le liya .. collg pahuncha ki lagbhag 7 tk isha bhi aagai.. meine wo phool usse de diya ...muskurai. aur rkh liya........
Thodi der mein ground assembly surru hui .... sb ground mein the wapas aay to pata chala phli class khali hai... class monitor tha to sb bole kissi ko na bulao meine bhi yahi kiya pr sbse aapna kaam karte tehne ko bol diya.
I... himanshi dekho nalayk ko
H... kun mohit? abb kya huwa
I.. kuch nahi bahut badtameez ho raha
H.. saurabh tumhara dost batamez hai
S.... kyu abb kya kiya
H... isha bol rahi hai aissa
S... dono pagal hai
I... pata nahi kya likhta rehta hai
S... batao mohit kya likhte rehte ho
M ... kuch nahi yaar
I... accha dekho iske bag mein dairy hogi
M... rukko dikha raha ....

Abhi y sb baate chal hi rahi thi kissi ne dhyan nahi diya isha gende ke phool ki hr pankhudi alag alag kar rahi thi
I.... iske page kyu phate hai
M..kl bola na koi nahi padh payga... likhna bnd ok
I...dekho isko kitna batamez ho raha
M.. hdd hai yaar wahi kiya na jo aapne kaha
I... pagal ho tum.... lo apana phool
M.. arre yaar y kya kiya.....
I... tumne phad diya humne bhi alag alag kr diya...
M... class mein gandagi kariy bss.aur batamez hum
I.... wo to ho hi....
M... aree
I... kya ..lo isse aur phek do....
Hum age badhe aur tukado ko sameta..pr pheka nahi unkonsambhal k aapne pass rakh liya

Kahani ki surruwat

Ek assi kahani ki surruwat kar rahan jiski na surruwat ka pata hai na ant k bss kyu ki isse mein ji raha hun ... y har pl apna swarup badal rahi hai. Meri khani ki suruwat tb ki hai jb meine phli baar usse dekha usski baate uski yaade na jane kya ... kya.. wo topper thi aur hum bss aisse hi apni di logo ki banay ek benchmark se naape jane wale jiske wajood ki gunjaish itni thi ki kabhi  hum sirf mohit bn k nahi reh paay. Hum alag the suru se, sb se ,sb alag hote hai pr na jane kyu kaisse hamari bhi apni pehchaan thi.. kabhi kuch aissa hasil nahi kiya tha jis pr gumaan ho pr aissa bhi nahi tha ki kuch hassil nahi kiya .mere jindagi ki wo choti choti khusiya jahan pr humko hamesha hamare ghar walo ka support milla ek wqt wo bhi tha jb hum hatash the, jindagi se mehrum tb bhi ... surruwat hui is kahani ki 10 th se usske phle ek nakchaddha sirdard tha mein phir na jane kya huwa ki badlne laga nahi mallum tha iski wajah ,aaj bhi nahi janta ..hamesha muskurahat ,tuunk mizaji hamari pehchaan hoti thi aisse to kai wakay hai pr sbse pehla wo tha jb dairy likhna suru kiya uss wqt se hi isha ka dhyan tha.. usske sath padhna .. usse sawal jawab usske notes uska humko samjhana . Datna sb alag tha.yu to gehri dost thi hamari pr shayad hum hi hr rishte ko naam dene ke piche pagal the.... shayad yahi wajah thi ki hum usse kitni dooor hai aaj.. ground mein khelna phir thak k wahi sustana .. himaat to thi pr jism ki takkat sath kahan nibati thi .  Tb humne apni likhne ki adat ko ayam denw k.liy diary likni suru ki suruwat k hi dino mein lagne laga ki ussme usse baate hoti thi . Dosto se baat share karne mein yahi hota tha ki ya to mazak nahi to badnami dono .... phir shayad tbhi se meine aapni baato ko likhna suru kiya aur tabhi se badalne laga... aissa nahi ki baate share nahi karta tha iske baad karta tha pr frk nahi padta tha wo kya sochte hai . Apni hi duniya hone lagi thi... isme maza aur saja dono hi thi .. to baat tb ki hai jb ek sin kissi baat pr apna ghagda huwa tha  aur do din koi baat nahi phir acchank games class mein wo hamare pass aai aur baat ki
I.... kya kar rahe ho? Tumhe har baat itni der se kyu samjh aati hai. Kya likhte rehte ho ... baat karni hai ki nahi?
Mein bss usko dekh hi raha tha dairy ko chupay
M.... nahi aissa nahi hai . Janti ho ki jaldi jussa ata hai aur shant bhi ho jata hai.. nahi mallum tha ki itna jussa tum bhi karogi. Samjhana chahiy tha ki nahi .. aur baate to aapse hoti hai .. kyu nahi karunga .. jarur karunga .. abb to bilkul nahi band karunga. .
I..... to laao dikho kya likha hai
M.... nahi yaar y mere liy hai .sbko nahi padhata.
I... to collg mein lakar kyu likte ho .ghar pr rakha karo
M.... jb bhi wqt milta hai likhte hai .. abb y sath hi rehti hai chahe ghar ho ya collg.
I... jo bhi ho dikho mujhe padhna hai.
M.. nahi yaar samjha karo
I... mujhe padhna hai bss....
Cheene ki asfal kosis. ...
M .... plz aissa na karo chot lag jaygi .. waise bhi ground mein sab dekh rahe
I... tumhe kb se sabki chinta hone lagi
Tabhi class khattm hone ki bell bajti hai dono apne dosto k sath wapas class aate hai....
I... dikhate ho ki nahi
M... nahi..
I.... jaao ... bahut bhaw hai tumhara..
Agli class surru hoti hai... phir school.over . Dono sath mein class se nikalte hai... pr khamosh ...
I... koi aur padh lega tb kuch nahi ..humko dekhane mein bhav
M.. koi nahi dekhega... aaj se likhna band thik hai.
I... bol to aisse rahe ho jaisse sari baat samjhte ho ...
M.... ek baar bola na abb nahi hoga aissa
Uski badi di usko lene ajati hai .. phir dono apne ghar ki aur nikal jati hai

Life

Life of mine is unpredictable  it always give me a surprise visit when I feel relaxed of it .I wonder why my good is not considered and excellence is what I can't produce but in trying of achieving I never stop hardwork ... I just got more than enough then my profile and faith...... but all you can take but one thing render ...... I love you but can't say to u that's what I am ... I can react write but can't speak ... no matter to whome you like I matters why you don't for me.....

Apologies

This is what I want u to know ma'am .... I know I disturb u a lot .... I know many times u just want to avoid me but I am what u can't avoid this is due to ur sweet nature. I wonder why I can't help my self .. today u were upset I know u don't want to talk I knew but it's ur really sweet nature u have given me time to talk .. just couldn't help myself . This is an apologise from my side to sweet hearted girl that she had given me so much space and comfortable around her that may I had crossed few times ur patience and made u angry even though u were kind towards me .After messaging so much I just want u to know I want you to keep smile all times but I just wondere how u manage all these my idiotism and ur patience what make u si special for me just  a special friend which give me time and support whenever I needed most..... this time I love my faith and luck due to which I got such a good friend.but might not made u comfortable so that u can share ur worries with me .... sorry ma'am for all my misdeeds .that were due to unknowingly plz forgive and at least smile

What next

Mein kya kar raha hun nahi pata ..... kisliy kar raha hun nahi janta..aaj jb patna se wapas araha tha ankho mein need thi nahi aur mera bogie mein mnn nahi lag rha tha ..mein apni tanhai k sath darwaje pr ja kr thodi der khada tha aur khamosh raat ki bechaini  mein ankho k samne se juzarte har cheez tezi se nikal rahi thi...mere ko samjh nahi araha tha ki wahi ruku ki ek kaddam aage badha dun hassi aati hai aisse khyalo se . Pr us wqt samjh sath khan thi.. sitaro ki duniya ek alag andaz mein samne thi ek taraf train ki dhad dhad aur upper santi se bikhare chamkile taare .. kabhi khayalo ke selaab achhank aate aur kabhi kho bhi jaate. Socha to y tha ki haan koi aissa hota jisko dil se yaad kar paate jisk sath hr baat share kar paate jisko hamari phikr hoti.. pr nahi hamare sath hamari kismat ki aazmaish aaaj bhi jaari thi.kismat ne maano y thaan aa liya hai bina sangharh bino do do hath kiy kuch pane nahi degi aur wo hai to hamari hi kismat hummse jiddi nahi jo chahiy agar wo bhi na pa sake to sanso ki y laddi bojh se km nahi. Mein practical kuch jyada hun ..har cheez ke hone ka matlb reason in sb pr dhyaan deta hun n isliy dusro se gyada dhukhi hun... wahi baitha tha aur kb subah hogai pata hi nahi chala sath mein na jane kb cigarette ka dibba khattam ho gaya pr khayalo ki wajah aur unki yaade jehan se aisse gayab nahi hoti bss bayan nahi karpaunga bss aankho mein paani aur thar thare uth aur unk beech hum.

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Kabhi kabhi jo mein karta hun uski wajah hamme bhi nahi mallum hoti pr jb wo ho hi jaya karta hai to drr kiss baat ka ..... yun ignore aap aisse hi karti rahengi to yakenan jiss din aap hamme bhul kr unk pass chali jayengi jahan se aapke dil ka surur hai to jane kya hoga.....mein ye nahi keh ta hun ki aap hum

Kanpur banners

Kl jb kanpur mein tha to purane din aur unse judi yaade jehan mein chal rahi thi...... hr cheez jo samne padti uski purani dhundhali tasveer saamne hoti.... nay purane ke beech aate jate vichar aur mein ....... mano sari thakkan khud se juda ho kr nayi soch k sath ho li thi........ jhkrkatti aaj bhi vaissa tha jaissa 6 saal phle.......train k sfr chod k maine bus chuna kyunki wo purane nazare itne aam nahi mere liy...... kai saalo k baad wo sfr kanpur se Fatehpur maza agaya..... wahi defence colony crossing ka jaam aur naya banta fly over.... rama devi ki alag pehchaan ..... thakkan jb tk havi hoti mein chudagra tk aygaya tha.... is beech raste ki har cheez alag hi thi kuch naya aur purana kahin kuch nigahao ko pehchaan batata to kuch apne nay hone ki baat karta .... jo bhi tha wo ehsaah kamal ka tha .... aaj bhi rawatpur crossing ki shaan rave moti.... wo to yaar ultimate tha.. bss wqt thoda km tha warna sb kuch ek baar phir jeeta... yun to ek saal phle bhi kanpur mein hi tha pr iss baar sirf purane din k liy yahan tha wo pl  jb phlibaar ghar se nikala tha... wo pl jb thk haar kr soch k sath mein hi badal gaya . Wo aaj k mohit nahi purana wala tha jo kl jinda ho kr ek pura din jiya ..... na koi phone na koi tension ... bss khule assman k niche behti hawao k sath purana yaarana ... wo kuch ghante k wqt ne jata diya humko hum kya se kya ho gay ... ur abb bhi khud ko agar na baccha pay to shayad humaari awaj kahin kho na jay

Do pal ka ehsas

Wo khamoshi ke daur mein jaagi hui hai kuch yaadein.....
Albaatta labbo pr pasra sannata aur jehan mein machta shoor......
Koi kissi ki chaht mein kitna badal jata hai
Kuch aur soch k kuch naya kar jujar jata hai
Kabhi y mohabbat hai jo naya ayaam de jati hai
Kabhi kisi apne ko dard de jati hai
Y jindagi hai jo har pal kuch naya sikhati hai

Confession

When ever we talk to a buddy a long and just want to spend too much time with her and u does that she talks you as good friends but you got pinched to know she had someone more loved and before a long time you came there.... why can't I find some more special for me .... yes indeed if someone share there opinion so open heart why can't I accept it with an open heart ... in whole 24 yrs I was on the voyage for search of true companion.  But I learned one thing in my first year of graduation that I am not what they want and what I want is too much to ask from them..... actually I had an apologise to every girl I met and troubled her with my thought process ... and now when the  burden of me has lifted I just want someone with whome I can share everything ... writing is one process to express out what I feel but any feedback I didn't get. .... I was just hoping to bring the tracks right and what I learned was a great complication of emotions jumbled up with chios of my feelings with other ..... just want yo say .... and its official ... I was in love with you.... Life of mine is unpredictable  it always give me a surprise visit when I feel relaxed of it .I wonder why my good is not considered and excellence is what I can't produce but in trying of achieving I never stop hardwork ... I just got more than enough then my profile and faith...... but all you can take but one thing render ...... I love you but can't say to u that's what I am ... I can react write but can't speak ... no matter to whome you like I matters why you don't for me.....

Pyar ki khabar

Iss raat ki khamoshi tale so raha......
Bekhabar koi .....
Wo raat ke baad hi ati ujjali kiran naai.......
Pr in bechain nigaho ka kya sababbb ....
Jb bhi hoti hai inhe bnd karne ki kosis...
Mehsus hoti Tej jalti hui koi chubhan.....
Khuli nigaho se bhi kya abb Rsk -o- shikva......
Berukhi tumhari thi ...sehni hmko padi...

Sabhy samaj ki aass

Mein y nahi janta ki sahi kya hai ..pr shayad y meri jimmedari hai ki apne ass pass ek khubsurat vatabaran tyaar karna jhan aap ko sukkun meile ek aissi dosti ki neev rakhna ki baato ko chupana na pade kissi se bhi...... hum aissi duniya mein rehte hai jahan aap k sath kabhi bhi kuch bhi ho sakta hai hosalo ki raftar ruk bhi sakti ... humme jaldi hi ek aissa kaddam uthana hoga jahan se hum apno k ly kuch behtar kar sake ....... aaj jo likh raha hun uski vajah jarur hai .... aaj mnn to laga jarur thes hai kyunki aapko nahi lagta tha ki aissa kuch hoga pr huwa wo jo umeed se pare tha .... unko aissi kya jarurat aa padi ki humpr hi sawal daag diy..... besharm hun pr begeraad nahi .y hamesha dhyan kar le ki phle kya karna hai .....aapko har rishto ko jahan tk jo sake ek behtreen andaj mein nibhay..aur unke beech jitni jaldi ho galat fehmi ko khattam karne ki kosis kare....

Pyaar ka eitbaar

Wo humko rula ke kahan ji payenge.......
Tanhaiyo mein humko hi sath payenge........
Khamosh reh kr kya hamme yu hi tadpayenge.....
Wo hamme bahut yaad ayenge...
Jb kabhi kissi hassen muskurahat se hoga sammna...
Har Kissi ki saant ankho mein nazar ayega aks tera. ....
Wo hamme bahut yaad ayenge.
Jb kissi dil ki dhakan ko jarurat hogi teri.......
Ankho k raste behti hogi dhara ......
Kissi kinare khadi kissi parchai ki jhalak.....
Kaano mein paddti kissi k payal ki khanak.....
Wo hamme bahut yaad ayyenge....
Sach to y hai humm kabhi unko bhul hi na payenge......

Y aap decide karo

Jazbato ke aage nikal hi nahi pa raha hun aur abb to shayad raat aur uski gehrai mein bahut sa wqt beetane laga hun... waqai ajeeb se dastan hai jb aap se bolne ki himmat jutai dosti ko ek naiy pehchan dilane ki kosis ki aap ko jaane kisne uss attet ki parchai se rubaro karwa diya  aapko .kissi khass apne ne ..... ajeeb itefaq hai jb chahta tha kissi apne ko khass banana tb na jane khas to wo bn jata hai pr aapki khud ki whatt lag jati hai..

Love

Pyaar kya hai kya mallum
..... kissi ka intezar rehta hai uske dedar ka khayal rehta hai uske sath wqt bitane ka mnn karta hai ... usse tarah tarah ke sawal karta hai dil ....hrr baar yahi sochta hun shayad kuch lamha aur hota ... iss wqt ki raftaar kuch km hoti...... behti haway aur dil ki dhakan mein jaisse ek race si suru ho jati hai jb tum samne hote ho.... pyaar jb tk mille nahi uska intezar hota rehta hai aur jb mil jay to usko sambhalna ek jimmedari ek khusnuma ehsas..... pr maza tb ata hai jb wo ektarfa ho aur y ek ki jimmedari ban jati hai ki kahin unki dosti kharab na ho jay.... pyaar na sahi unke beech ki baato ka daur na simat kr reh jay....issi beech aapka koi apna unko y bata de ki aap unko pasand karte hai.... aapka past ho aur unko mallum .....tabaaahi tabaaaahi ....... aapki kosis har wqt y rehti hai ki kahin aap unse duur na ho aur unki ki aapke pass na aay bss issi jad-do-jehad mein life ka apna hi maza aata rehta hai... kismat apne rang dikhati hai aur aap apni mehnat...... wajood aur istakbaal ki jung hoti hi rehti hai..... kya y mayne rkhta hai jinka past ho kya unka koi naya future nahi ho sakta ...... ya jinka past na ho unka kl bhi roshan hoga y kahan ki baat hai..... insaan ko tawajoo dena ho to uski kosis uske hosle dekh kar socho ki wo kl kya tha aaj kya hai aur aane wale kl mein kitna badlega....humko jo jante wo y maante hai badla hun pr ek cheez jo nahi chodi hai wo hai writing

Yaari bhi kaissi

Bhaiya log y duniya apne type ki nahi yahan hum jaisse logo ko chutiya hi samjhte hai.....accha y baatao kya badal jayga mere life mein .kuch nahi.... jaan kr wo kya karenge kuch nahi .... anjane raaz beparda huy bhu to kb jb hamme unki jarrurat hi na thi.....hum to kl bhi block the aaj bhi hai aur shayad kl bhi rahenge. ... apni jindagi ka kya...aaaj hai kl nahi..tera sath kya ho bhi to sahi warna baba ji k thullu

Wah re doosti

Kabhi kabhi y lagne lagta hai kitna bae- maani safar hai y mera .jo dost bolte hai jinke sath wqt juzarta hai sbse jyada wo hi aap pr yakeen nahi krte ..unke ly aap hamesha ek aisse bande ho jo ki daru k nashe mein kuch bhi bolta hai....aur jb nashe mein nahi hota to shayad meri jarurat hi nahi hoti unhe..... tez haway jb chalti hai to unke sath bahut se patte aur bahut kuch hota hai aur unko shayad y lagta hai haway unki wajah se hai..... hoss me mein rehna nahi chahta aur madhoshi mein koi hamare sath nahi nibhata...... akele to chal k jung bhi jeet lenge pr y jo hr wqt uthti hai chutarfa ungali hum pr inka jawab dena dobhar hai.... yahan agar aap kissi se kuch share karte hai.kuch batate hai aapna samjhkr to usse hota kya hai dokha ... jhuta samjhte hai.. aur chahte hai hum yakeen kare unpr arre hammari jindagi mein dosto ki kami thi na apno ki bs agar chand pal k sath ko dosti samjha to haan y meri galti hai......

Teri saza jaan le legi

Jb aap kissi ko pasand karte hai pyaar karte hai to apne se phle unke baare mein sochna chahiy....kissi ka aahm itna bhi bada nahi hona chahiy ki kissi ka astitvya chota lagne lage uske aage...... hammari khata kya itni badi thi ki maafi bhi na mil paati aur aapne hammare hisse mein itni badi ruksai likh di bataur saza ... hum kar bhi kya skte the sivay bebasi ke aapko niharte ...... hum to soch bhi nahi skte the ki aap ko humse itni takleef kitna roos tha ki hamme dekhna bhi na kafi raha aapko. Sach jarur kadwa hota hai manta hun .. jaanta hun... pr akhir kyu ek baar bhi jirah nahi karna humse munasib samjha aapne....?

Mera tera intezaar

Kissi ke jawabo ka intezar hamesha hi rehta hai........unko dekhne ka bahana bhi dil dhund hi leta hai..aur jb bhi wo samne hote hai bato ka jharna suukh kr registaan ban jata hai.yado ki apni hi taseer hoti hai.teri tasveer mere jehan ki gehrai aur ankho mein is kadar samai  jaisse jism mein piroi huwi ruh .....chahte huy bhi bs krta rehta hun tera intezaar.....aur hasil kya kiya jindagi mein siway ruksai k...

Raat aur mera sath

Aaj ki raat me kuch nayi baat to nahi thi per kuch naya jarur ho skta tha
Khamoshi hai.......
Aisa lagta hai sbhi ek dusre se kuch kehna chahte hai pr na jane kyun aissa karna nahi chahte........Door ek taraf tanha chand hai jo akela khada sabko nihaar rha tha soch raha h kab koi aker usse baat kare….or dusri taraf wahi jhilmilate tare hai jo h to kai saare fir bhi us chand se koso door h..….
Hawaye sard hai.........aspas ka sannata iski pehchan  banta ja raha hai....... ye khamosh raat hi ho sakti hai jiski khubsurti ko aaj bhi nihaar hi raha h wo chand ……. Thik ye aissa hi hai...... jb koi aapse baat karta h accha lagta hai fir achank wo bate band ho jati h or  khamoshi hawi ho jati hai.....ufff ye kamosh raat .....nishchhal, befikr, apne mauj me tanha akeli ghumti, bina kisi ki parwah kiye sabko apni panahao me bharti hui behti hui ja rahi h………

Chand ki udaasi ko dekh ye khamosh raat aur gehri ho gai hai abto................... kuch aur bhi raaz hain dabe isme…Meri hatho ki hatheli khali thi aur dimag bojhil, ankh utha kr mai kuch nihaar hi raha tha ki ek waqkya jehan mein agya…………
Iss khamosh gagan ne na jane kitne anjane raaz samete hain apni jhilmilati kaali chadar k piche..... wakya huwa kise kya mallum .........pr shayad koi apna tha jo aaj bhi rutha hi raha....
sach kismat meri zindgi ka koi hissa rahi hogi jb khata jo ho gyi thi ne badal diya sab kuch....... khamoshi aur har taraf behti hui ye siharati hawa....... yahi kuch pal hote hai jb aap khud se rubaru ho sakte hai.... yahan is wqt aap hain.....akele sochte likhte apne hi banaye ek bhram mein jeete........ yahan sb kitna shant lagta hai pr kuch hi der mein yahan ek shor hoga na jane kaisse koi kahin kho bhi sakta h.......

koi hai jisse kuch kehna tha,smjhana tha...... pr shayad abb use humse  koi wasta nahi...mein aapse baato ka daur is raat ki khomshi mein badlna nahi chahta tha....... pr un anjane raaz se rubaru karana tha jo ki parde k piche the.....wo anjane be-parde jo humare beech ki khamoshi de gaye……… abb na nend hai na sakun fir bhi sanso se andr jata ye dhua ehsas dilta ki waqt hi km ho chala hai........abb y samjhna muskil hai andar jalta ye dhua hai ya............
uff Subah k 4 aur shayad in ankho ne aaj bhi sath nibahya .......koi nishaan bhi baccha nahi ki nend bhi ayi thi...... kuch pal aur phir raat ka andhera aur ghana hoga…........ jhilmilati chandni chadar jo ki ab tk mere sath thi dhere dhere ojhal ho rahi hai..... chahta to tha ye pal shayad kuch sath nibhata or uski yaado k saye mein kuch pal reh paata pr ye sikudti chandani chadar aur ankho k ojhal hota ye chand ehsas dila rha h humara sath km ho chla h ....... ek sangeet parindo se sunehra hota ye asman jo abb tk shant tha abb usme kuch sug-bu-hatat hai jaisse jaan phir se lauta di ho akeli tanha hawao ne .....
chahta to nahi tha jo us pal hua ...... nahi chahta tha ki aapka sath itna km hota...... abhi to suruwat bhi na ho saki thi ki ek faisla jiska koi adhar nahi kitna ghna andhera kr diya humare darmiyan.....khushi kya intezar kya  tha abb wqt bhi baimaan nikla...... sudagar nikala ....samet raha hai wo sare pal jo uske kbhi the hi nahi .... ankho se ye behti iss wqt oos ki boond aur khayalo mein chaya thehrav abhi bhi intezar mein hai uss sunehari kiran ka ....uss jawab ka jo khushi ki muskurahat iss chehre ko de sake........
Suraj sir k thik upper hai .... apni tapish ki puri pradarshni karta huwa....... jin palo mein kuch jaan wapas ayi thi, ek tazgi thi jo us tapish se kahin thakan me badal rahi h,ek ajeeb si sustai nazar ati hai. ..... Ab parinde tapish aur jalan se rahat ke lye panah ki talash me udte hue hi dikhte hai....... daudti jindagi acchanak kahin phir se raftar khoi nazar ati hai aur pareshaniya aur shikan chehro pr saaf nazar arhi h....... bina kuch kiye ye sab jaise baimani hi lagta hai..........sabko lagta hoga naya kya tha ye wo chnd wqt ki parchaiya thi jinke agosh mein raha unse ye bataya ki gunah to kuch kiya hi na tha aur zammane ki ruksai milli........ ek dard seene mein chupa tha....... ek tez si jalan seene mein uffan marti hai... tere chehre pr faila y dard .....ye gussa meri wajah se hai ...... uff ye surkh laal ankho ki lali ajeeb sa khauf paida karti hai ..... jinka hona tapte registaan mein sukhi nadiya ki darare se dikhi h .............abto panah de de mujhe kahin jala k khak na kr de wo pal jinka ana abhi baki tha......... ufff ye tanha raat aur uska mera sath...........

U r only one

Very deep inside u there is always a feeling which u hide from all but in the emptiness of life u need a patner with whome u can share all ur feelings all emotional issues ... there is a stage of life when u look for the proper and complimentary patner a person towards whome u want to be sensible. .. I was a fellow who had not the proper past but with ur presence it may be brighter in coming days.... so much my feelings towards u can't b faid now ... yes u r my girl who made me to change....but plz b the part of my life I am sorry for all my misdeeds ignorance and all.. just give me a chance so that I may just plz give me a chance.i am not asking u to forget what had happened but to forgive me. To see u from distance is always a delight moment for me but to be ignored by u was a painful experience